episode 8

永利电玩城 2

Life is a way towards directly to death. We always want to see what if I
have done or not done something what will I look like now? will I be
happier will I live better?But maybe unsatisfied is not a state but a
property of human being——u see even if Jerry has been a movie star and
lived a life that everybody envies. He still has his pain and eager that
can’t be fulfill in his own parallel life.

At first I find Chris hard to understand, and then I realize he has
something I don’t have. Actually we have a lot in common. I just think
that one can still live his ideal life in a society if he’s mentally
free. Civilization is not that evil. At least philosophy and science
help us better understand the world and make us live longer and
healthier. Our mind can be free even though our body is trapped. I still
want the truth, rather than money, fame, fairness and everything. I want
to get along with fear and loneliness, since I know I’ll get a lot of
them if I want to live a conscious life. In the movie, Chris says don’t
try to be strong, feel strong. I understand his tears and agree with his
idealism. I just think it’s better to be alive and live physically well
to make those ideas realized.

永利电玩城 1

“Nothing can ever, ever defeat a liberal London single woman.”As she
returned home from several imprisoned weeks in Thailand, half smiling as
I love this blond girl, constantly amused and entirely enchanted
throughout. Bridget Jones always takes action unexpectedly, which itself
is quite expected. She’s self-independent and tough. Landing at the
hogpen, embarrassing herself in the court’s party, she never feels sorry
for herself. She seems awkward and unlikely to make her way around those
elegant, educated women but though she seems inferior on those
occasions, in my eyes she’s much stronger as she does not fear failure.
Many people are strong in fear of failure,of the past or the future, but
she lives for now and respond at once. Whether she wants to dump Darcy
or to reconcile, she instantly goes to him’s without thinking. I really
have no idea where her permanent confidence comes from. We usually build
up confidence by success or fake it out to achieve something hard, but
she’s a high spirit in her vein and nothing can bring it to knee. She
adapts herself to the situation swiftly. In prison, she gets along with
female prisoners as soon and makes the best of the awful life there
however bad the situation is.Just imagine the picture of a British girl
whirling and laughing in a Thai prison with her bra in hand. Any other
girl would make it disgusting but in Jones’s case, I kind of admire her.
It’s not hard for a girl to drown herself in alcohol and cigarette and
involve herself in futureless physical relationships, but it’s not at
all easy for her to still hope for happiness.
I have to say, apperantly, Jones is everything in opposition to Darcy.
One as a far-from-professional journalist, while the other as a promised
lawyer. Jones shouts at and confronts Darcy when she speculates about
him while Darcy holds his tongue to show anger. Jones is never lacking
in facial expressions while Darcy keeps his poke face even proposing, as
at the end of the movie.The difference between the future couple is
exactly a vivid account of disparity betweent two classes. The company
they keep, the topics they talk, the manners they display and especially
the way they want to raise the child. Family tradition to go to Ethen,
typical upper-class.
This does remind me of one episode in Downton where house maid Etho
decides to raise her bastard herself against all odds when the child’s
grandfather promises him a decent life on the condition that the son and
the mother shall never meet again. Why social mobility is hard to
achieve is more than a question of ability but more about willingness.
The deep-rooted distinction (here,mother love &education) of values is
more essential and harder to tackle. The lower class,if to use the
phrase, put stability and family in the first place, while the upper
class, usually more civilized in all aspects of life, pursue personal
development, no matter career, dream, knowledge or whatever. I am sure
this is no more than a personal opinion and a dangerous generalization
but what dawns on me is that there shouldn’t be a correct answer. I have
been taught to aim high, that is, to get myself civilized, and strive
for success, that is, to do good to civilization. I almost always doubt
the purpose of quality time with family or friends and prefer to shut
myself in my room to read on my major. But I am more and more finding
that maybe I am straying away from what it means to be human. “They know
life better than we do”, as Cora’s American mother put it. I am not
labeling myself as a so-called upper class member, which is of course
far from the truth. I am just trying to understand the values I happened
to pick up on my way to maturity. The world has been changed just
recently, by technology, science, commerce or so. Dare we say what most
of us are doing most of the day is really what human life should be
like? And those ancient heritages, usually more inherited by lower-class
families are really something inessencial, ignorant and trivial? Why
must I admire a scientist who didn’t sleep the whole week to conduct his
important research but feel pity for a shepherd whose only concerns are
sheep under the white clouds and blue sky?The species of humen have been
living for hundreds of thousands of years and civcilization is just one
tiny bit of it. But here it is obviously Jones who gets a bargin in
their relationship from any possible perspective. Our instinct tells us
to climb up in social positions.
Maybe I am making too big a thing of it and civilization is still a part
of nature and there is no intrinsic difference between the values we
hold among classes. But I am really curious about how Jones and Darcy
get to fall in love with each other, which the movie didn’t give much
account of. It’s just before we know it, they have already had a thing,
which seemed unnatural. And afterwards we just watch a lot of how Jones
feels about the relationship but hardly the relationship itself, making
the character of Darcy quite remote from the audience. Maybe that’s
partly because the movie puts too much emphasis on Cleaver’s part and
the sparkle of love between Daniel and the heroine makes the one between
Darcy and Jones vanishes a bit. For me, it seems if not for Cleaver’s
profligacy sexually or just speaking of personality, Cleaver enchants
Jones more than Darcy does.But with a second thought, I think, although
wearing an unfeeling expression, Darcy is indeed much,much deeper in
love with Jones and absolutely a much,much more glamourous man than the
damn Cleaver.
And to do with some intercultrural reflection, apart from the typical
but not that stereotopic images of Thailand, there is one thing that
captured my attention, that is, how television programs work in
Britain.Firstly, they do not rehearse or edit but preserve the whole
truth. Secondly, they are always trying to come up with new ideas and
compliment the original. I hope we Chinese TV companies can learn from
how they do it, not only what they do.
All in all, it is a nice movie. I not only had fun with our cute heroine
but also got a casual but vivid look at British social environment. Look
forward to the next episode…

If this is a truth maybe we should start a class to teach people how to
feel happy and satisfied. More happiness less pain.

“The core of human spirit comes from new experiences.” “You are wrong if
you think the joy of life comes principally from human relationships.
God’s placed it all around us. It’s in everything, in anything we can
experience. People just need to change the way they look at these
things.” I was much relieved when I heard him say this. I think of all
my indulgence. It’s like my whole world is centered on my feelings
towards a relationship. But that’s not true. All my sufferings are real,
but those are only clouds that are passing by and I’ve got a whole

be a better yourself

Beth said that I thought what we have done is for our child but we just
never gave her anything. So we’d better cherish each other to prove that
the choice without abortion is right.

Chris is so loved by many people. They want to help him, do a lot of
things for him. They know his master plan and insights on life. Chris is
kind and nice. He also believes in helping people in need. He said
killing the cow was the biggest mistake he made in life. He gave his
last quarter to the man next to him at the phone booth so that that man
can finish his call. He donated all his savings to the charity. There’s
no reason I don’t love this guy. He is too good to be true.

1. Today is Tuesday, October 24, 2017, it’s sunny outside, but still
cold. I haven’t seen the sunshine for several days, so it’s
acomparatively a nice day.

Not every child was born with blessing. Better to say, we want to make
babies less fear of the realistic world so we make up many romantic
stories to tell them. And when they find out the truth of the world they
will fell despair and anger

“Happiness is only real when shared.” My tears are salty.

First, let’s look at the contents of Mr. Xiaolai’s column The Journey to
Financial Freedom I reviewed today, it’s still about sense of security.

.“we bury ourselves. I want to say that life is just so and we all will
die. Come on let’s watch tv

a. Many people said that their heavies burden is the expectations from
their parents, because their parents hope they can live in a stable
way so they can feel secure. But actually, their real burden is that
the sense of security from obeying their parents’ arrangements. And in
fact, they enjoy this kind of sense of security and they blame it to
their parents and say they have no choice.

.“this world still has hope despite so much despair.”

Mr. Xiaolai said that parents’ disagreements and objection are the best
test for you to see that if you really want to live the way you want,
have the life you dreamt, if you have the guts or courage to face your
own life without any help, make your own decision, and most importantly,
be fully responsible to your decision and choice.

That’s one of greatness of human being, I think——people never totally
lose hope.

Actually, my father always wanted me to be a teacher in a public school
for the past years and he often talked about that being a teacher is the
best choice for girls and you can live in a stable life with stable
salary, and you can get all kinds of insurance.

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I’m so glad that I didn’t listen to him and got into a public school,
even though I didn’t know what do I want at that time, but I did know
that what I don’t want, so I keep on being myself. And now, I feel life
is full of energy and hope, and I have the possibility to do what I
really want to do, and live life in the way I always have in my mind.

If you don’t have the courage to say no to your parents and anyone who
wants you to be the person they are satisfied with, that means maybe you
just want that kind of life in your deeper mind and you are afraid of
fighting for your wanted life, because you let the others decide your
life and you should bear it without complaining.

b. Many people worried that they would be ridiculed by others if they
say something or do something, for avoiding these, they never take
action or take their first step. The best way to solve this problem is
that you will never ridicule others and eliminate the idea or concept
of “ridiculing” or “mocking” out of your mind thoroughly.

Yes, we are what we think. And the others are the reflection of
ourselves (the others just are the mirrors, everything you see on them
is from yourself), you see someone has some problems and something you
hate, the truth is you are hating yourselves, you have the exactly same
problems as the others, you just didn’t notice or find out.

If you never mock the others or say bad words behind people, you will
not think people will mock you or curse you behind you. Just like
students, many students don’t dare to raise their hands to answer my
questions during the class because they’re afraid that the other
students would laugh at them if they made a mistake, but actually, they
laughed loudly at others if they made mistakes.

So if you are not happy with someone or something, just look deep down
inside to find if you have the same problem, and focus on yourself, make
you change, to be a better man, then, the world you see is much more
beautiful and nicer.

c. If you don’t take action to do the things you want to do as soon as
possible, then you will always live in a way that you don’t like and
keep thinking about the things you wanna do which is very miserable.

This is a quote from Lian Yue, a person I’ve heard of his name but not
familiar with. I like this saying, this is so true and cruel. Most of
people struggle in the job they don’t like, the living way they aren’t
satisfied with, but they just think they have no choice but accepting
everything they have. Everyone have the choice to change their lives,
just to see how bad do you want to change, how bad do you want to make
your dream come true.

I’ve always been a dreamer until recently I start to take real action to
do some real change. Because I’m so not happy with my job and my friends
circle now, I just got stuck by some situation here that I cannot get
away from this. But I’m preparing for leaving at any time.

I wanna change so bad, I wanna make my life colorful and experience
more, I wanna see more people, I wanna stand on a bigger stage, I wanna
see the world. Because you only live on this planet once, only once, so
I wanna totally live the way I have in my mind and I’m working hard to
make it realize. Actually ,I need to work harder, my endeavor is not
enough for my big big dream.

2. Today I got up at 4:50, that is a little later than last week’s
average getting up time, because I went to bed later than before, that
is about 10:30. I didn’t get full use of yesterday, my rest day in the
morning, so I had a lot of to do after work, that is why I had to go to
sleep that late. Naturally, no early sleeping, no early getting up and
good energy.

A fall into the pit, a gain in your wit. Never make this kind of stupid
mistake again and make best use of your weekends (Monday and Tuesday).

Remember that try to finish all the things you need to do in the
daytime, and you won’t feel pressure and can go to bed early in the

Today I broke my running record, both the speed and distance. I ran
6.3km in 45m, I was going to run 5km as usual, but I felt very good when
I ran 5km, and I thought that I could keep running. And actually, I
didn’t wanna stop even at 6km, I wanna try 10km.

I’m going to run 500m more every day, and gradually reach to 10km. I’m
excited about that. Tomorrow I’m not going to run, because I’m tired
today, especially my calf and feet, I wanna go to a massage shop to find
someone relieve my fatigue.

I found it interesting that I only feel fatigue in my sole and calves,
I’m not sleepy even though I thought I should be sleepy, but I’m not.
That’s the energy of running brings to me.

  1. This afternoon around two o’clock, Ruiling and I went to our office
    to practice our oral English. The topic is Time Management, she prepared
    many questions on this topic and she interviewed me.

At the very first beginning when we start to talk in English, I felt a
little bit awkward and shy, but after answering a question I felt much
better and started to enjoy to speak in English. I think this is a very
good way for us to improve our English in many aspects and we will keep
on doing this every week.

3. Just now I watched Mr. Ning Xiangdong’s live streaming on Dedao,
he is really a wise man. Here are something that we need to keep in

a. Just like Mr. Xiaolai’ said that you have to be good enough on
one particular skill, Mr. Ning also said this. He told us that you have
to focus on one thing and do it very well, pay your attention on
“quality” instead of “quantity”. And there is a very good quote he used
to comment another intelligent man’ knowledege, Mr. Zhang Wuchang from
one of his friend, that is: Narrow but deep.

Yes, narrow but deep, this should be the right way for people who want
to be successful to pursuit, but most of people pursuit broad but
shallow or superficial, that is the core reason that most people are
studying hard every day but cannot achieve anything, just like myself in
the past.

After listening to Mr. Xiang’s live streaming, I’m more confident that
I’ve made a right change and doing the right thing right now.

b. Don’t expect there’s shortcut, there’s absolutely no shortcut.
Anything valuable won’t pay off in a short time, you have to be patient
and even suffer pains.

c. Action speaks louder than words. If you are the leader, you want
your subordinates to do something, it’s more effective if you just do it
than you ask them to do .

These principles are not new, they are simple and old, and we even read
and hear every day, but most people just don’t believe these, because
they never take action to do the things these principles telling us. Now
I believe in these principles and Mr. Xiaolai more, because many masters
are telling us these.

You heard it, you know it, you follow it, you do , you think and then
you change.

4.Today’s effective attention cost:

running: 1h

English extensive listening : more than an hour.

English Speaking: 30m

永利电玩城 2


5.Today’s meditation

I will do it later before go to bed.

Change, change, change, never stop!


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